Let It Go

I truly believe that especially in today's world that it's important to try our best to let some things go that may be holding us back from being a better Christian. 

When I look back to the year 2024, it wasn't a good one. Not because of "bad luck" or whah me! You hear a lot from other people who are always saying constantly, "Nothing good ever happens to me!", "Just my luck!". I truly get sooo tired of hearing that from people. YOU CAN ACTUALLY SPEAK BAD THINGS UPON YOURSELF WITH NEGATIVE TALKING!!! Things just happen. It's not God's fault. Stop blaming God for everything. Anyway, 2024 wasn't a good year for me. And do you want to know why it wasn't a good year? Because of my own decisions. Not for any other reason than that!

I was drinking constantly. I was friends with people who participated in witchcraft. I PARTICIPATED IN WITCHCRAFT THINGS! I was going to fortune tellers. I was buying and using crystals. I was buying Tarot cards and using them more than once a day. I was Deeply in love with using Oracle cards more than once a day. I was making spell jars and enjoying it very much. (Way too much). I was into using crystal balls. I was reading witchcraft spell books and making spells. I was doing so many things that had to deal with witchcraft DAILY. It was actually kind of spooky now that I look back on it. I eventually started making homemade VooDoo dolls.

I was so addicted to this lifestyle just by the people I kept myself around. And NO, I'm not putting the blame on someone else. I made all of my own decisions to fall in love with this darkness. It pulled me in and was my second drug next to alcohol. Scary huh? You might not think so, but here is a small list of downfalls that started creeping into my life while using witchcraft.

1. The cards were NEVER wrong! It excited me even before I'd turn that first card over. I knew what every card meant as soon as I turned it. I didn't even have to look up the meanings to the cards I used them so much. So, what's so bad about the cards never being wrong? Well the problem is that when you use Tarot cards, you're accessing spirit guides which could also include "familiar spirits". The cards were NEVER wrong!
2. I became very suicidal. I was always thinking about wanting to die. I didn't want to be here anymore. I could not see or even understand why I was born or allowed to be breathing good air when in my mind I only believed that I caused everyone around me only destruction. There was always a dark voice in my head telling me that no one one care anyway. I believed that I was below worthless and the only thing that made me happy was witchcraft and drinking.
(Note: I started using witchcraft about 3 or 4 years ago when I was working at a sewing factory. I worked with a few ladies who believed they were witches. I was always jealous of them because they claimed to be born withes of pure blood. Well I wasn't, so I was determined to also become a witch.) So, I didn't instantly start thinking about suicide. I just want you to know that. It was about a year and a half after really getting into using everything when I started hearing the darkness in my mind that I should just die already.
3. I COMPLETELY fell away from God. And I want to make this clear to everyone reading this. God never left me. I walked away from God. God never leaves us. In Hebrews 13:5~ God tells us, He will never leave us or forsake us. We only walk away from him. Wow, I was so lost and my mind had been brainwashed from witchcraft.
4. My attitude completely changed. I wasn't happy unless I was with my witch friends. And we had so much fun together. We would go to crystal stores, Tarot stores, etc. But now that I think back, we never went anywhere unless it had to do with anything dealing with witchcraft. Even the Farmer's market. To be honest, we only went there to see the spiritual advisor to buy more crystals, spell jars, get a daily reading, etc. I was really in love with that spiritual advisor. (aka Witch) The only place we would go on our days out that didn't have to deal with witchcraft was to eat lunch together and to the liquor store on our way home. I really miss those ladies because we were friends, but sometimes we have to step away from people. NOT BECUASE WE DON'T LOVE THEM, BUT BECAUSE WE LOVE OURSELF MORE! So, with my addictive spirit, I can't be around any of this! I want those ladies to know I will always love them. But, I can't be a part of that lifestyle anymore. Jesus Christ is now my lifestyle.
5. I built this extravagant "Fairy Idol" I was in love with Fairies. STUPID! This Bible Verse can't be more terrifying! Galations 5:19-21 Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.
I was worshipping these fairies!! Shame on me! I destroyed the idol and threw everything away. People listen to me. There is Heaven and there is Hell. You don't get a choice. Is your name going to be in the Book? I'm so thankful for God's forgiveness!

Okay, so this was just five examples of how my life changed while dealing in witchcraft. But there is so much, I can't even write about it all in my blog or this will become a novel HAHAHA! But I DO have a point in all of this blog, I promise! 

When I got home from my 32 stay in alcohol rehab, I decided to get rid of everything witchcraft in my house. I had sooooooo much stuff that I had bought over the years. All that waisted money! lol. I was just DONE with all of it! I threw away 3 decks of Tarot cards, 4 decks of Oracle cards, everything that I had bought to make my spell jars, witches brooms hanging on my walls, over $1000 in crystals and so much more. I just threw it all away!

Instantly, I felt this darkness that had been hovering over me start to lift off my chest. I could breathe better. I even felt better. Not just mentally, but physically my body felt better.

I love this Bible Verse.  Romans 12:2, “And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.”

So I had gotten rid of everything in my house that had to do with witchcraft. I asked for forgiveness of my sins, I rededicated myself to Jesus and even got Baptized for my one year sobriety celebration! BUT I kept noticing this severe depression that would not leave me. I got to thinking, OMG, I'm still watching TV shows that are all about witchcraft.

My favorite show in the WHOLE entire world and I don't know if you've heard of it, but it's called, "SUPERNATURAL".
Supernatural is about this brother duo, Dean and Sam. They were born into a world of Demon and Witch hunting. The show is all about killing demons, killing witches and any supernatural being that is BAD! There are 15 seasons of this show, and I can honestly say that I watched it from beginning to end more than 30 times! This show I was idolizing. And not just this show but other scary movies I watched quite often.

Last week I wanted to also get rid of all of my supernatural movies, posters, etc that I had bought over the years. I took all my DVD's to vintage stock and got rid of those and just threw everything else away. Now before you go and start judging me for reselling my DVD's, I only got $2.50 for it all! I didn't even care about losing money, I wanted it out of my house!

So, in saying all of this. Here is a key point to my sharing today. If we want to walk in Christ, then we have got to get rid of these worldly things. 

I still have many things I have to work on within myself, but this was a huge success for me and my faithfulness to God.

My life was dark, sad, lonely and more. I was living in a life of destruction by my own actions and decisions. No one else's.

I am so grateful for God's word which helps to guide me daily to keep making right decisions. 
What are some worldly things you need to let go of?

I will see you all soon and I hope you enjoyed my blog today!

xoxoxo, Michelle Neal