I hope everyone has been kind to their mental health while I was away!
Happy Wednesday friends. It's been quite a while since my last blog. When you're dealing with mental health, sometimes even when taking medication, we can have a difficult time with completing easy tasks. "Like Blogging"
Writing and reading, I love it so much and unfortunately Satan will use other Christians to try and pull you backwards. I'm not going to let that happen to me because I've been way too far in my life. I have overcome so many difficult obstacles and I can't let what people say hold me back anymore. If you allow that to happen in your life, then you will continue to keep sliding in the wrong direction. Then eventually, you'll be right back living your old lifestyle again.
Please know that when I say that Satan will use Christians against you that you understand completely what I believe that means to me.
Satan will use other Christians who are not living right with Christ to try and pull you backwards. They will fill your mind with doubt, and they will say things to you not even realizing that they are hurting you. That happened to me recently. But we have to remember to just pray for them and also don't forget to pray for yourself.
I feel like in my mental health journey and my spiritual journey with Jesus Christ that I'm making a huge success in my life!
Today I am 10 months and 20 days sober. I feel amazing. I have grown so far in my Christian journey that I know when God is talking to me. It's the most amazing experience. I will tell you an example that just happened to me this past Sunday. You see, I absolutely do not like to miss going to church and the only time I will miss is if I am truly sick.
I've had a pretty bad sore throat now for a couple weeks and it was at its worst on Sunday morning. I had already made up my mind I wasn't going to church that morning. My husband had already been awake, and I told him I just didn't feel good, and I wasn't going so he said, "ok".
All I wanted to do was get back to sleep and I would be able to sleep so sound while my husband was gone. He got into the shower, and I covered back up to fall asleep. I tell you this is the truth! Every time I closed my eyes God said to me, "Get Up and Go to Church!" I can't make this stuff up. LOL
I was dis-obedient at first. "No that's just me". So, I closed my eyes again to fall asleep, but over and over he said the same thing to me. "Get Up and Go to Church!" Finally, I was obedient and got up and started to get dressed. I wanted to believe at first that it wasn't God so I could stay home and sleep HAHA. But we have to listen to God when he speaks to us.
When my husband got out of the shower, he came into the bedroom and seen me getting dressed. He said, "What are you doing?" I said, "Well, God told me to get up and go to church so I'm being obedient!" My husband said to me, "Yes sounds like you should listen". HAHA
We have to listen even in the worst times when we want to be stubborn and have everything our own way. I ended up going to church and having the most amazing day because I listened to God. I introduced myself to some amazing new people at church and guess what? By the time I even left my house to leave for church, my sore throat was already gone. I don't like missing church. I believe being present in the house of the Lord is the best thing to do. I'm not saying that attending church in your home isn't good though. Please understand that. Just for me and my own personal life, I have to be present.
It's amazing to watch yourself grow in your relationship with Jesus and see the flowers bloom around you. I am truly blessed 100%.
When you open your heart completely to God, you will see amazing things in your life. I mean, last week I almost fell off the treadmill at the gym because I got so into the spirit while walking that I was singing to Jesus and I was so filled with the Holy Spirit that I almost fell over!
I hope you enjoyed my blog today, and tonight I will do an update on my sobriety for you all.
Have the best day ever!
xoxoxo, Michelle Neal