Today was my 1 Year anniversary of being sober from alcohol.
Well, today I have officially reached 1 Year of being sober from alcohol. Honestly, I didn't feel any more special or different. Just another day to me. I guess I just think differently than everyone else about the situation. It's not like, I'm NOT proud of myself because I am but, everyday that I don't drink is kind of a win. And the honest truth is that I don't want to drink and I never think about it. When I say God truly healed me from alcoholism, HE DID. That's one reason why you'll never hear me call myself an alcoholic. I never needed therapy and I never needed AA meetings to stop drinking. Once I decided I was done, I WAS DONE. And with God's love and arms around me this past year has meant everything to me.
So I guess in staying that, I had a pretty good day. I spent time with my three youngest grandkids and watched movies. Then when the youngest 2 took a nap, my oldest granddaughter helped me make gifts for my friends and family for our church get together this Sunday,
The only thing I'm looking forward to in this 1 Year celebration is that I get to share my story with my family, friends and church family this Sunday. I'm not nervous at all, and know exactly everything I'm going to say. So, I am very excited to share about my struggles and hitting ROCK bottom. And the best part, is going to be Baptized and then getting to spend fellowship time with everyone who comes with good food and visiting with everyone!
Idk, I am very happy about my 1 Year, I just feel ehhhhh today. Mostly because I got my meds messed up yesterday and now I feel poopy today. Also I can't seem to stop biting down on my jaw, like I can't stop putting hard pressure down on my jaws. I'm not sure if it's anxiety, nerves, or my meds. Maybe it's a bit of everything put together. Maybe I need sleep or an extra anxiety pill? I might take one soon.
I think I just have 10000 things on my mind all at once, and note: none of those things are bad things. Just thinking about a lot of different things and I think it's got me a little depressed.
Today I posted my 1 Year anniversary of being sober to my friends on FB, and it was so sweet to see all the likes and lovely comments from people who love and care about me. It's moment's like those that are worth waking up with a smile everyday!
So anyway, this is a short blog tonight, but thank you everyone for the kind words today. I have been working on gifts to give out to everyone on Sunday, so I'm going to get off here and make yarn pom poms LOL.
xoxoxo, Michelle Neal